6 months & 20 lbs...

Six months of infertility treatments & 20 lbs later we still are no where closer to expanding our family. I'm finally on cd1 today. Due to not ovulating last cycle my cycle was 52 days long which is a new record for me. After much discussion and soul searching we have decided that this will be our last cycle of treatments for the summer. We decided that we will not do any treatments during the summer. Summer in Alaska is an amazing experience and we didn't want to have to plan our summer around my cycle. We just wanted to get out and have fun. I'm hopeful that this cycle will work and we won't have to worry about it anymore. My doctor has doubled my Clomid dose and honestly I'm scared of the side effects, buy if it results in a pregnancy, then it will all be worth it.

In other news our roommates have moved out! It is so nice to have our house to ourselves again! I love not having to worry about what I'm wearing or not wearing when I come downstairs and having access to the basement and washer/dryer whenever I want. It was also really nice to have complete alone time with my amazing husband.

Living Healthier

At the beginning of March, I started having green smoothies every morning for breakfast. I ended up having the smoothies every morning for 2 weeks and I felt amazing. I felt healthy, had no bloating, and no headaches. Unfortunately I get headaches frequently and they tend to be pretty bad. Due to pure laziness I stopped making my green smoothies 2 weeks ago. Boy have I noticed a difference in my health. I have had many more headaches, been much more bloated and just over all felt more run down. This last week has been especially bad. We have just been eating whatever, not really paying attention to the health value of anything. In fact we have been eating out more than cooking at home. I have felt horrible this last week! Suddenly Saturday evening, after being in bed all day, I realized that maybe I was feeling bad because I wasn't eating right. I told Reed that I was going to start doing the smoothies for breakfast again and try to make a salad every night to take with me for lunch at work. How crazy is it that something as simple as a smoothie can make such a difference?

Day 35 and counting...

Today is cd35 and still nothing...not even a hint that af will arrive anytime soon. So like a good little girl I called and let my doctor know that I hadn't started like they told me to. I know my body and can normally have a cycle as long 40-44 days, so I'm not concerned. Alas, I did was instructed and they seemed irritated that I didn't take a hpt. Are you serious?!? I know that I'm not pregnant...I don't get pregnant, at least not so far. So now I have to take at least 1 pregnancy test to tell me what I already know. Then the nurse told me that they would like for me to take a test at home and then if they do something to start my cycle then I will have to have one done at the hospital as well. Ugh...seriously! On top of that loveliness it's May 2 and snowing. The last 2 years by this time I was wearing a very light fleece jacket to work in the mornings, opening the windows in the house and wearing sandals. Now I have a mid weight jacket on, no sandals, snow on the ground (approx 3 ft in my backyard still) and more snow falling daily! What gives?!? I've heard of global warming effecting other parts of the country, but it missed Alaska. They are predicting snow again tomorrow and Saturday. I'm really really hoping that after that we are done with snow until October.

The ailments don't stop with infertility right now. I'm having horrible back pain today. I've had chronic lower back pain for years now, but typically once I go to sleep at night it's gone when I wake up. That isn't the case today unfortunately. After doing some work on the floor for approx 30 minutes I had bad back pain. I tried to relax some before I went to bed without success and finally went to sleep for the night. When I woke up this morning not only was the pain not gone but it was just as bad as when I went to sleep. When I got to work I called to schedule an appt as soon as I got a chance. Thankfully they were able to get me in today because they have late clinic hours on Thursday! I just had to endure through the day at work.