I can't believe that today I'm 29 weeks pregnant with out daughter! I dreamed of this for so long and finally it's reality. Most days I wake up and still am in awe that I'm finally pregnant and that, so far, we have been blessed with a healthy baby and fairly healthy pregnancy. Today we are doing a 3D/4D ultrasound of our baby girl and I'm so excited to see her! I'm really hoping that she cooperates and we get good pictures of our little lady. Reality of everything is really starting to hit me. In less than 3 months she will most likely be here with us and our lives will have changed forever. We are gradually getting things for her. Right now I think we have all the essentials for the first couple of weeks, but who knows.
I feel it's time to "let the cat out of the bag" so to speak about our other big news. After Reed was injured in April we came to the quick realization that his career in the Army was over and that it was time to think about where we wanted to settle down and raise our soon to be expanding family. After many hours of discussion and weighing the pros and cons we have decided to stay here. We both love Interior Alaska despite the cold and dark winters. We love the pace of life up here, the people and I have a great job. That being said we decided to purchase a house that way we can use the BAH from the Army to pay the mortgage and then we'll have a place when he gets out next year. We started the process Mother's Day weekend and didn't expect to find anything for a while. I actually didn't want to move until after our little lady arrived. However, we ended up finding a house that fit almost 100% of our wants that next week and that weekend we put in an offer for that house. Right now we are in contract on the house and are waiting on a couple of pieces of paper to come in for the final approval of our mortgage. If all goes as planned we will be moving into our new house in 3 weeks! I can't believe that at 31 weeks pregnant we are going to be moving. The house will be the perfect place for our little girl to grow up and our dogs to run and play.
June 9, 2014
June 4, 2014
Hanging on
I'm 28 weeks and 2 days today and things are getting more challenging by the day for me. I'm so overwhelmed on a daily basis.
At my OB appointment last week my resting heart rate was 120, despite sitting there laughing and chatting with my OB for 10 or more minutes prior. Actually, lets back up a bit. Around 14-15 weeks I started feeling my heart racing and around 18 weeks felt it start skipping. So I was sent to the cardiologist. After wearing a monitor for 30 days that would record my heart rate and rhythm when I felt abnormal I followed up with the cardiologist. I was well aware of the fact that I would have challenges with my heart during a pregnancy, it was a matter of when not if for me. He said that what he thought I had going on was not something that can be treated during pregnancy. However, my magnesium level was low. He said it was 1.4 and they don't like it less than 1.7. So he decided to put me on oral magnesium tablets. I took them twice a day for a week and had my level rechecked. Unfortunately, it didn't go up at all, so he increased me to 3 times a day. I was able to do that pretty consistently for a couple of days; then the misery started. For those who aren't familiar oral magnesium is frequently used as a laxative (think Milk of Mag). Let's just say that I quickly became very dehydrated and nauseated. I was so dehydrated last week that I had my OB just on our little lady because I stopped feeling her move. She checked out just fine, but he told me that if I didn't feel her move twice in 8 hours to call him since it was the weekend. I followed up with him at my regularly scheduled appointment that next week (where the story started earlier) and we decided that since I wasn't tolerating the oral magnesium and wasn't seeing an improvement in my symptoms that he would start me on a beta blocker and I would stop taking the magnesium as frequently. I'll be honest, since my appointment with OB I've only taken the magnesium once or twice and each time had the same miserable side effect. My cardiology nurse called the next day to see how I was doing and I let her know what had happened so she got an order for me to have an IV infusion of magnesium. I had that infusion this morning and this afternoon feel miserable. I'm going to attribute it to the magnesium infusion because I have heard that it can make you feel "mag crappy." I took my beta blocker this morning, but this afternoon just sitting at my desk my heart rate is at least 120, I'm shaky and insanely hot. I would give anything to be in a cold air conditioned room with ice cream right now. I'm supposed to go back next week and have my level rechecked and I pray that it has gone up because I don't want to do another infusion, I just want to feel better.
On top of the heart issues going on insomnia has set in majorly! I don't remember the last time that I had a good night's sleep. I think part of the insomnia is the typical third trimester insomnia everyone talks about, but I think a bigger part of it is the stress I have right now. Last night I sat in bed and watched my husband and two dogs snooze away while I was wide awake despite taking a Benadryl.
Then there is my husband's health issue. While he was away at training 7.5 weeks ago he broke his ankle. It was a very severe break, he was rushed to emergency surgery that afternoon and came out with at least 10 screws and a plate. In typical Army medicine fashion when they put on his post-op they didn't position his foot properly so he ended up with mild heal cord contraction (essentially foot drop)that was discovered at his initial 2 week follow up. Due to that they were unable to put him in a cast so they resplinted him for his trip back to Alaska and we followed up with ortho here at the end of that week. They stretched him as far as he could tolerate, but still didn't get his foot to neutral so he had to go back 2 weeks later for yet another cast. By the time we was put in that cast he was able to go almost completely to neutral, but still had mild contraction. Today was his follow up with x-rays where he was supposed to be given the clear to transition to a boot and start gradually weight bearing. Well, that didn't happen. Apparently he hadn't had enough bone growth so he is back in the cast for 2 weeks. At that point he will most likely get repeat x-rays and we're crossing our fingers for the clearance to start weight bearing. I haven't seen him or even really talked to him since his appointment this morning because of my infusion, but I know he's upset. Being so limited with his activities and such has really got him down, especially since it's summer in Alaska. On top of all that they want to take Reed back to surgery in the middle of July to remove a screw from his heel. She told us at his last appointment (before today) that he should be recovered just fine by the time the baby is born, but now I'm even more doubtful than I was initially. The screw isn't something that has to come out, half of the ortho surgeons remove it and the other half leave it in. If you leave it in it can break and cause irritation. Reed really wants to have it removed. He's even crazy enough to talk about having the hardware removed once he is good and healed because he's worried about what it will feel like at -40. I think he'll be fine with it in and don't even want to discuss taking everything out at this point, but I do understand why he wants to have the screw removed. However, I'm going to ask him he if can convince them to wait until after the baby is born and my parents or sister are here because I don't want to take the chance of him not being off crutches and unable to really help when the baby is born. We've briefly discussed that before, but after today I think it's definitely something to consider, now just to convince him and the doctor.
On top of our health issues we made the crazy decision to buy a house. We haven't really told many people about it because we know that the timing is not ideal, but then again is it ever ideal? We started looking at houses Mother's Day weekend, ended up finding a house that next weekend and putting in an offer on it that next weekend. Right now we are waiting on final approval for our mortgage and if all goes through and as we plan we will close on the house in just under 4 weeks. Can you say crazy?!? We are currently scheduled to close on the house when I'm 32 weeks pregnant and my husband is unable to walk. While the idea of our own place with no shared walls and immature neighbors who think yelling at each other a 0230 is acceptable, we both recognize that the timing qualifies us as certifiably insane!
Reed has been so overwhelmed with everything because he is unable to really help me with anything that he has asked his dad to come stay with us for a while. He will be here next Thursday and while I think it's going to be stressful for me I'm also starting to recognize how much we really do need the help. My father-in-law is not in the best health himself, but he's great at keeping Reed calm and finding positivity among chaos. As of right now we don't know when he is going to go back home but I think Reed is expecting him to stay at least a month. Again, that thought terrifies me, but I'm trying to remind myself that we need the help.
On a positive note we have our elective 3D/4D for our little lady on Monday. I cannot wait to see her! I hope that she cooperates with us and gives us good pictures.
At my OB appointment last week my resting heart rate was 120, despite sitting there laughing and chatting with my OB for 10 or more minutes prior. Actually, lets back up a bit. Around 14-15 weeks I started feeling my heart racing and around 18 weeks felt it start skipping. So I was sent to the cardiologist. After wearing a monitor for 30 days that would record my heart rate and rhythm when I felt abnormal I followed up with the cardiologist. I was well aware of the fact that I would have challenges with my heart during a pregnancy, it was a matter of when not if for me. He said that what he thought I had going on was not something that can be treated during pregnancy. However, my magnesium level was low. He said it was 1.4 and they don't like it less than 1.7. So he decided to put me on oral magnesium tablets. I took them twice a day for a week and had my level rechecked. Unfortunately, it didn't go up at all, so he increased me to 3 times a day. I was able to do that pretty consistently for a couple of days; then the misery started. For those who aren't familiar oral magnesium is frequently used as a laxative (think Milk of Mag). Let's just say that I quickly became very dehydrated and nauseated. I was so dehydrated last week that I had my OB just on our little lady because I stopped feeling her move. She checked out just fine, but he told me that if I didn't feel her move twice in 8 hours to call him since it was the weekend. I followed up with him at my regularly scheduled appointment that next week (where the story started earlier) and we decided that since I wasn't tolerating the oral magnesium and wasn't seeing an improvement in my symptoms that he would start me on a beta blocker and I would stop taking the magnesium as frequently. I'll be honest, since my appointment with OB I've only taken the magnesium once or twice and each time had the same miserable side effect. My cardiology nurse called the next day to see how I was doing and I let her know what had happened so she got an order for me to have an IV infusion of magnesium. I had that infusion this morning and this afternoon feel miserable. I'm going to attribute it to the magnesium infusion because I have heard that it can make you feel "mag crappy." I took my beta blocker this morning, but this afternoon just sitting at my desk my heart rate is at least 120, I'm shaky and insanely hot. I would give anything to be in a cold air conditioned room with ice cream right now. I'm supposed to go back next week and have my level rechecked and I pray that it has gone up because I don't want to do another infusion, I just want to feel better.
On top of the heart issues going on insomnia has set in majorly! I don't remember the last time that I had a good night's sleep. I think part of the insomnia is the typical third trimester insomnia everyone talks about, but I think a bigger part of it is the stress I have right now. Last night I sat in bed and watched my husband and two dogs snooze away while I was wide awake despite taking a Benadryl.
Then there is my husband's health issue. While he was away at training 7.5 weeks ago he broke his ankle. It was a very severe break, he was rushed to emergency surgery that afternoon and came out with at least 10 screws and a plate. In typical Army medicine fashion when they put on his post-op they didn't position his foot properly so he ended up with mild heal cord contraction (essentially foot drop)that was discovered at his initial 2 week follow up. Due to that they were unable to put him in a cast so they resplinted him for his trip back to Alaska and we followed up with ortho here at the end of that week. They stretched him as far as he could tolerate, but still didn't get his foot to neutral so he had to go back 2 weeks later for yet another cast. By the time we was put in that cast he was able to go almost completely to neutral, but still had mild contraction. Today was his follow up with x-rays where he was supposed to be given the clear to transition to a boot and start gradually weight bearing. Well, that didn't happen. Apparently he hadn't had enough bone growth so he is back in the cast for 2 weeks. At that point he will most likely get repeat x-rays and we're crossing our fingers for the clearance to start weight bearing. I haven't seen him or even really talked to him since his appointment this morning because of my infusion, but I know he's upset. Being so limited with his activities and such has really got him down, especially since it's summer in Alaska. On top of all that they want to take Reed back to surgery in the middle of July to remove a screw from his heel. She told us at his last appointment (before today) that he should be recovered just fine by the time the baby is born, but now I'm even more doubtful than I was initially. The screw isn't something that has to come out, half of the ortho surgeons remove it and the other half leave it in. If you leave it in it can break and cause irritation. Reed really wants to have it removed. He's even crazy enough to talk about having the hardware removed once he is good and healed because he's worried about what it will feel like at -40. I think he'll be fine with it in and don't even want to discuss taking everything out at this point, but I do understand why he wants to have the screw removed. However, I'm going to ask him he if can convince them to wait until after the baby is born and my parents or sister are here because I don't want to take the chance of him not being off crutches and unable to really help when the baby is born. We've briefly discussed that before, but after today I think it's definitely something to consider, now just to convince him and the doctor.
On top of our health issues we made the crazy decision to buy a house. We haven't really told many people about it because we know that the timing is not ideal, but then again is it ever ideal? We started looking at houses Mother's Day weekend, ended up finding a house that next weekend and putting in an offer on it that next weekend. Right now we are waiting on final approval for our mortgage and if all goes through and as we plan we will close on the house in just under 4 weeks. Can you say crazy?!? We are currently scheduled to close on the house when I'm 32 weeks pregnant and my husband is unable to walk. While the idea of our own place with no shared walls and immature neighbors who think yelling at each other a 0230 is acceptable, we both recognize that the timing qualifies us as certifiably insane!
Reed has been so overwhelmed with everything because he is unable to really help me with anything that he has asked his dad to come stay with us for a while. He will be here next Thursday and while I think it's going to be stressful for me I'm also starting to recognize how much we really do need the help. My father-in-law is not in the best health himself, but he's great at keeping Reed calm and finding positivity among chaos. As of right now we don't know when he is going to go back home but I think Reed is expecting him to stay at least a month. Again, that thought terrifies me, but I'm trying to remind myself that we need the help.
On a positive note we have our elective 3D/4D for our little lady on Monday. I cannot wait to see her! I hope that she cooperates with us and gives us good pictures.
May 6, 2014
Glucose Testing & Fetal Echos
Yesterday I had both my 1 hour glucose test and the fetal echo for our little lady. The glucose test was not nearly as bad as I had worked it up in my mind to bed, and thankfully I passed. I don't know if I would've tolerated drinking any more of that lovely orange drink or to have gone in fasting and unable to eat for an additional three hours for the test. About 30 minutes after I finished my drink it felt like our little lady was having quite the party in there. I loved it. I absolutely love feeling her move and squirm around. That afternoon we had her fetal echo. My OB decided to go ahead and order one for her to make sure her heart looked ok since I have a history of a congenital heart defect. She is typically really active between 1600 and 1800, and her echo was at 1630. I didn't think anything of it. She was so active I couldn't help but laugh as the ultrasound technician tried to measure her little baby heart and see everything. Our little wiggle worm would rest for a brief moment and the ultrasound tech would have the perfect view of something and as soon as she would go to measure or whatever she needed to do at that point and our wiggle worm would move. The tech would then sigh and try to chase down the wiggle worm. I don't know what was more fun: getting to see her and watch her moving around or listening to the tech try to do her job. The tech was amazing though and kept a great sense of humor through the whole thing. While they didn't get to visualize everything like they like to or do all the measurements they wanted they said that her heart looked great. The heart defect that I had isn't found until after birth however, so we'll see if they do any testing after she's born to check her heart and make sure everything is normal. The only down side to her being so wiggly is that all the pictures that we got of her yesterday are blurry. I'm ok with that though. Sure they aren't awesome for everyone else to see, but Reed and I got to see her clearly. My favorite thing that we saw yesterday was her playing with her hands in front of her face. It was fun watching her start sucking her thumb, then decided to clap her hands a little and then just wave them around. I'm so in love with this little girl already it's unreal!
May 5, 2014
24 Weeks
How far along: 24 weeks
Total weight gain? 2.7 lbs
Maternity clothes? Most definitely. My family was awesome enough to go get some for me since there are no stores up here that sell maternity clothes really and I'm hesitant to buy them online because I'm picky. Thankfully my sister knows my taste very well and I now have some comfortable clothes that aren't t-shirts.
Stretch marks? Yes, but I have embraced them. I'm so happy to be pregnant finally that they don't bother me at all.
Sleep: Insomnia and generalized discomfort have definitely set in.
Best moment this week: Passing the glucose test
Miss anything? Not really. I'm thoroughly enjoying this stage of pregnancy
Food cravings: Same craving for cherries, and not PB&J sandwiches and soft serve ice cream. (I've been holding back from the ice cream until I got my glucose results back, so that's my treat for today)
Anything make you queasy or sick? Nothing
Gender: GIRL!!
Labor Signs: None.
Symptoms: Starting to have more of a hard time breathing at times, insomnia, and generalized discomfort at the end of the day
Belly button in or out? In.
Wedding rings on or off? On
Looking forward to: We have her fetal echo this afternoon to make sure that her heart is healthy given my heart history. I'm looking forward to getting to see her again, but super nervous they will find something wrong.
Total weight gain? 2.7 lbs
Maternity clothes? Most definitely. My family was awesome enough to go get some for me since there are no stores up here that sell maternity clothes really and I'm hesitant to buy them online because I'm picky. Thankfully my sister knows my taste very well and I now have some comfortable clothes that aren't t-shirts.
Stretch marks? Yes, but I have embraced them. I'm so happy to be pregnant finally that they don't bother me at all.
Sleep: Insomnia and generalized discomfort have definitely set in.
Best moment this week: Passing the glucose test
Miss anything? Not really. I'm thoroughly enjoying this stage of pregnancy
Food cravings: Same craving for cherries, and not PB&J sandwiches and soft serve ice cream. (I've been holding back from the ice cream until I got my glucose results back, so that's my treat for today)
Anything make you queasy or sick? Nothing
Gender: GIRL!!
Labor Signs: None.
Symptoms: Starting to have more of a hard time breathing at times, insomnia, and generalized discomfort at the end of the day
Belly button in or out? In.
Wedding rings on or off? On
Looking forward to: We have her fetal echo this afternoon to make sure that her heart is healthy given my heart history. I'm looking forward to getting to see her again, but super nervous they will find something wrong.
March 27, 2014
It's a....
BABY GIRL!! We're so excited! I've said from the beginning that it was a girl. I have to say that getting to watch her move all over the place during the ultrasounds is one of my favorite things so far. I can't wait for the day that I can start feeling her move around.
How far along: 18 weeks 3 days today.
Total weight gain? According to the scale at home still just over 1 pound
Maternity clothes? Still find the tops very comfy. Unfortunatly, my prepregnancy jeans are not working for me anymore, thankfully I found a pair of maternity jeans that fit. Still can wear all my normal work clothes.
Stretch marks? None yet
Sleep: Nights have become a little more restless, I still manage to sleep most of the night, but it definitely isn't restful sleep
Best moment this week: Anatomy scan and see our little girl!
Miss anything? I really miss being able to sleep on my stomach and assist in the OR. Although I'm going to try going back to the OR next week and see how it goes.
Food cravings: Still those cherries. I can't wait for late spring & summer when fresh produce (especially fruit) is available.
Anything make you queasy or sick? I can't think of one thing in particular.
Gender: GIRL!!
Labor Signs: None.
Symptoms: Still having some round ligament pain.
Belly button in or out? In.
Wedding rings on or off? On
Looking forward to: Being able to feel her move.
How far along: 18 weeks 3 days today.
Total weight gain? According to the scale at home still just over 1 pound
Maternity clothes? Still find the tops very comfy. Unfortunatly, my prepregnancy jeans are not working for me anymore, thankfully I found a pair of maternity jeans that fit. Still can wear all my normal work clothes.
Stretch marks? None yet
Sleep: Nights have become a little more restless, I still manage to sleep most of the night, but it definitely isn't restful sleep
Best moment this week: Anatomy scan and see our little girl!
Miss anything? I really miss being able to sleep on my stomach and assist in the OR. Although I'm going to try going back to the OR next week and see how it goes.
Food cravings: Still those cherries. I can't wait for late spring & summer when fresh produce (especially fruit) is available.
Anything make you queasy or sick? I can't think of one thing in particular.
Gender: GIRL!!
Labor Signs: None.
Symptoms: Still having some round ligament pain.
Belly button in or out? In.
Wedding rings on or off? On
Looking forward to: Being able to feel her move.
March 13, 2014
Almost 17 weeks
I can't believe that on Monday I will be 17 weeks! I'm finally starting to feel a little more human. I don't have near the nausea and vomiting that I did have. This week has been a little rough though due to stupid work stresses, my family coming in town and feeling like things have to be perfect around the house, those great pregnancy hormones and still being crazy tired. Does the fatigue ever get better and am I looking at being tired until this child moves out? I'm kidding, well kind of. I still feel like I sleep pretty good at night, but keep finding myself on my back. I try going to sleep on one side or the other, but every night I wake up randomly and find myself on my back. I'm trying not to stress about that too much with the theory that my body will take care of itself and not allow me to stay on my back if it's causing problems. Back to the fatigue...goodness. I can make it through 1/2 the day on good days before I feel ready to pass out. It seemed to have gotten better for a while, but is bad again. I honestly think part of it though is the above mentioned stress.
How far along: 16 weeks 3 days today, I haven't started taking any bump pictures yet because I had enough fluff pre-pregnancy that I feel like I still look just fat and not pregnant.
Total weight gain? Just a a little over a pound according to my scale at home. As soon as I found out I was pregnant I started weighing myself almost daily because I knew that since I was overweight to start with I shouldn't gain much more than 15 lbs. I lost almost 18 pounds in my first trimester due to the intense nausea/vomiting, so I guess technically I still haven't gained anything.
Maternity clothes? I have to admit I love maternity tops. I randomly put on a pair of maternity jeans this last weekend, and although they were a bit big, I can say that I'm not looking forward to having to wear those.
Stretch marks? Still none... so far. But, I can absolutely feel my skin really starting to stretch, so we'll see.
Sleep: Still sleeping quite comfortably although my big baby, Jackson, gets booted to the floor most nights.
Best moment this week:
Miss anything? I really miss being able to sleep on my stomach and assist in the OR. Almost 2 weeks ago I went to the OR as normal, scrubbed in to assist in the surgeries and within an hour of starting 2 of our 3 cases that day I had to break scrub and leave because I got overwhelmingly hot. I've been too scared to go back since. I feel so guilty having to leave in the middle of the case because I take an active role in assisting in each case and I feel like I throw off everything by having to leave. My surgeon is so good about it though. My OB said that the crazy hotness tends to get better around 18 weeks so I figure in a couple of weeks will try again.
Food cravings: Cherries! Those yummy ones from Washington with the pits in them. I found a bag right after I found out I was pregnant and thoroughly enjoyed them and have craved them since. Unfortunately everything is so seasonal in Alaska to start with and those are definitely a season fruit that I can't get them.
Anything make you queasy or sick? I can't think of one thing in particular. The smell of cooking buffalo is not awesome(we use ground buffalo rather than ground beef).
Gender: Any one's guess still. For the majority of the time so far I thought I was having a girl, but recently I've started to think it's a boy. I've had super vivid dreams of both so who knows. Hopefully we'll find out in a little over a week. My family tends to think it's a girl and everyone at work thinks it's a boy.
Labor Signs: None. Yesterday I did have a lot of cramping, which was scary, but thankfully it went away. I think it was from doing too much around the house.
Symptoms: Ligament pain!! Holy cow! That stuff is no joke. Other than that headaches once and a while, increased appetite and fatigue.
Belly button in or out? In.
Wedding rings on or off? On
Looking forward to: Spending time with family this coming week, feeling the baby move (although realistically that is probably still a ways out) and the anatomy scan
How far along: 16 weeks 3 days today, I haven't started taking any bump pictures yet because I had enough fluff pre-pregnancy that I feel like I still look just fat and not pregnant.
Total weight gain? Just a a little over a pound according to my scale at home. As soon as I found out I was pregnant I started weighing myself almost daily because I knew that since I was overweight to start with I shouldn't gain much more than 15 lbs. I lost almost 18 pounds in my first trimester due to the intense nausea/vomiting, so I guess technically I still haven't gained anything.
Maternity clothes? I have to admit I love maternity tops. I randomly put on a pair of maternity jeans this last weekend, and although they were a bit big, I can say that I'm not looking forward to having to wear those.
Stretch marks? Still none... so far. But, I can absolutely feel my skin really starting to stretch, so we'll see.
Sleep: Still sleeping quite comfortably although my big baby, Jackson, gets booted to the floor most nights.
Best moment this week:
Miss anything? I really miss being able to sleep on my stomach and assist in the OR. Almost 2 weeks ago I went to the OR as normal, scrubbed in to assist in the surgeries and within an hour of starting 2 of our 3 cases that day I had to break scrub and leave because I got overwhelmingly hot. I've been too scared to go back since. I feel so guilty having to leave in the middle of the case because I take an active role in assisting in each case and I feel like I throw off everything by having to leave. My surgeon is so good about it though. My OB said that the crazy hotness tends to get better around 18 weeks so I figure in a couple of weeks will try again.
Food cravings: Cherries! Those yummy ones from Washington with the pits in them. I found a bag right after I found out I was pregnant and thoroughly enjoyed them and have craved them since. Unfortunately everything is so seasonal in Alaska to start with and those are definitely a season fruit that I can't get them.
Anything make you queasy or sick? I can't think of one thing in particular. The smell of cooking buffalo is not awesome(we use ground buffalo rather than ground beef).
Gender: Any one's guess still. For the majority of the time so far I thought I was having a girl, but recently I've started to think it's a boy. I've had super vivid dreams of both so who knows. Hopefully we'll find out in a little over a week. My family tends to think it's a girl and everyone at work thinks it's a boy.
Labor Signs: None. Yesterday I did have a lot of cramping, which was scary, but thankfully it went away. I think it was from doing too much around the house.
Symptoms: Ligament pain!! Holy cow! That stuff is no joke. Other than that headaches once and a while, increased appetite and fatigue.
Belly button in or out? In.
Wedding rings on or off? On
Looking forward to: Spending time with family this coming week, feeling the baby move (although realistically that is probably still a ways out) and the anatomy scan
February 10, 2014
Miracles do occur!
My whole life I've had my doubts about miracles. They seem so unreal to me. I believe in coincidences, but not miracles. I especially gave up any small lingering hope of miracles when month after month AF came and I watched everyone around me getting pregnant and having babies. That all changed on 12/19/13. After having a crazy intense dream of taking 5 pregnancy tests and getting all BFPs I decided to go ahead a take one that morning. I figured I hadn't started yet, but given my irregular cycles and first time taking Femara I didn't know when to expect it. Plus I had plenty of cheapie tests so why not. Almost instantly the 2 lines appeared. I started shaking like crazy and suddenly felt like I couldn't breathe! This couldn't be real! I don't get positive tests. I instantly tried calling Reed because he had already left for PT. I knew that he was going to sick call that morning, but of course he didn't answer. I called my sister, but I had to talk to someone. I told her what was going on and text her a picture of the test. She confirmed that there was indeed a second line and it was positive. I had to be at work early that morning because we had a surgery so I put a FRER test in my pocket and said I would take it the next time I had to go and if it was positive I would believe it. Thankfully Reed came home right before I left. I showed him the test and told him I was pregnant and he just stared at me and the test in disbelief. He told me that he wouldn't believe it until he had secondary or even tertiary proof. So off to the hospital I went and right after I walked inside from the cold I had to go again so I did the second test. Again positive! I wanted to run home instantly and show Reed, but of course I had a job to do so I threw the test in my pocket and headed to change for the OR. After we finished our case I went to the lab and had blood drawn to confirm and later that afternoon the nurse called to confirm that I was indeed pregnant! This pregnancy is most definitely a miracle baby! We had given up hope of that cycle working because my doctor wouldn't do the IUI because of Thanksgiving and the entire week that I was fertile Reed was studying and had promotion boards so his stress level was crazy high! I still did my opk's because I had them. Once I finally got the positive Reed had already taken his Ambien and gone to bed. We made sure to bd that next night, but I was positive that it wasn't going to work. However it did and I'm happy to announce that I'm currently 11w6d with a very healthy baby!
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